At any time, you can reinvent yourself–not in the creepy, “I’m going to change my name and be a completely different person” way. No, I mean, you can change your point of view, the way you look at things and experience them whenever you choose.
Yesterday, I cleaned out my kitchen, and it was like an episode of Hoarders (or so my husband said). I had way too many random cups, like the ten-pack of pink plastic ones from Dollar Tree, and about 10 different frying pans, some of them black and greasy and some of them just useless. I had mismatched plates, silverware, and like 100 reusable grocery bags shoved into one cabinet. It was alarming, at best. I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW that I have repurposed them and thrown out the bad stuff. There is actually extra room in my cabinets! I could store a pet in there (but that would be weird). I wish I could say the same for my jeans… Hehe. #summer
Anyway, I was sort of feeling bad for myself and super anxious this morning. I think Labor Day is always the start of a new year for me, since I prefer to live in school years instead of calendar years. September is my January. I’m a student of life, shall we say? But, I felt this pain in my chest, and I was about to cry. I am super competitive, and I was bashing myself about some book reviews, and how I was not far enough in life, etc.
Then, I was like, “Wait, why am I doing this to myself?! It’s 70 degrees out, sunny; I have my kids, a great husband, a nice house, a published book that’s selling well, and What-in-the-Actual-F am I sad about?!”
I decided to change my point of view.
This is my new year’s resolution at Labor Day! I am NOT going to go down the rabbit hole, and I am going to stop hoarding depressed feelings about what went wrong in my past, just like I hoarded plastic cups and random kitchenware.
I would like to see how long this lasts, as I’m never one to keep too many resolutions. Willpower is NOT my strong suit.
But, I will try for today. No, actually, I will not try. I will #justdoit. See? I already tried to let myself off the hook. GURL. I have to kick it in gear.
As Yoda said, “Do or Do not. There is no try.”
